Challengers who come into the arcade want to befriend you but humiliate at the same time. I take neutral, sometimes nonchalant stances with those people. I'm part of a community with a backwards mentality where respect isn't gained with mutual acts of gratitude, you have to go against the grain and prove you're worthy ... but of what? You have to annihilate and embarrass your opponent to be recognized. How logical is that? Being a girl who can play at the arcade seems to hold more weight than just being someone in the background; I feel I have to stand up to the big boys a lot more now.
I never felt that I had to do something special in video games, so my goal was to know how to play and make friends doing it. I guess you could say I felt threatened when people prodded at me because of my gender. I've learned to play some of them and stay out of others, but "nobody cares if Julius Sneezer beats on tons of girls, that's nothing to brag about." Just to quote some insight from John Dangerous. I suppose there's a shock value when my opponents realize who I am; it doesn't prove very much in reality, but it tells you a lot about the type of people who are paying attention.
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How I feel in my own Arcade / I just came to Play:
Do I intimidate you? Do I strike fear in your heart?
we don't see eye to eye but you're afraid
I'm better than you. with a mentality like that,
it's bound to be true. I am not afraid to die,
What have I got to lose? What do you choose?
You can fight and win easily but there will be
a line of challengers once you defeat me.